.simple joy of life.

let it out

2011-03-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

So,hi guys!
It’s been a long time if you notice.Actually it’s not that I really abandoned writing or..babbling/ranting maybe,I still write but I never feel like publish it..i am so happy when I know that there are some people who read this blog..and got some responses.Couple of times I opened this page..but then I close it,maybe because I’ve got nothing in my mind..actually because I don’t know how to make that little story ‘look’ interesting..i’ve became scared to..okay maybe it’s too much,I’m not that scared,I’m just worried that people will judge me,yeah..and also I thought that I don’t have to share my activities and so on so everybody can see it..eventhough sometime I feel like there is someone out there who *maybe* feel the same way as me.Oh yeah so I have to explain a lil bit about “people will judge me”..i mean I guarantee that none of my close friends or people that actually know me,read this…so the rest are just strangers right? Why I’m worried of being judged by strangers? Responsibility maybe,yeah I’m a lil perfectionist at some stuff but,come on! Only at blogger and multiply I can share these kind of things.where I could be myself?
Hmm..i warn you that this post is not about simple joy of life,it’s about how to feel simple joy of life that maybe I forgot how.
So the stuff above is problem no.1,problem no.2 is being afraid of judged by people i know.many people that I met said that they can see it that I try to hide whatever it is inside me..that I try to hide who I am.You wanna know the truth??? It’s not because I hide it,I just don’t know how to act right! Most of them said that I’m a quiet person,that I’m a ladylike?! Hahahaha….well well that’s the truth,so here it is..i will show you:
1.i like to listen to Vampire weekend’s and dance like crazy for hours eventhough it’s late at night.
2.i have an ugly laugh,the longer it gets the higher the tone’s gonna be (pardon my grammar!).
3.I love to slack sometimes,watch anime or good movie until dawn.i even repeated the movie/anime that I love and watch it again until dawn. (I know I’m stupid)
4.i can be like my own true self when I’m with my sister.i can *cough* fart and laugh after that,spit when I talk..but she’ll just rub it without making a disgusted face..HAHA,okay…now I’m making myself look even uglier this time,haha…I can make hena kao *weird face* or weird expressions just to…hmm just because I feel bored :D
5.i like to put weird pic as a profile pic.when I think about it,people can think me as a attention seeker.The truth is, I don’t know where else I can share this stuff,stuff that I like and made me laugh..or sometime it’s just a way to calm me..that life is hard but I can still laugh about it…an the most important thing is.. I love making people ..maybe just smirk,or smile when they see my weird pic.OR…it’s just that I want it (random)
There are a lot of course about me..the point is,maybe sometime I still don’t know who I am.i’m confused?,it is so sad when you don’t know where else you can share things that you like with other people…it’s like people see me as an alien.so maybe I see people like alien too..i’m afraid at some people,when in other circumstances I can become brave to start the communication and be myself..weird yeah.i try to figure it out :_)

it's about me,it's about you

2010-10-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

It’s not about can not forget or can forget, it’s about me,still put my hope up.I don’t know what makes me like that.it was so ..they are irreplaceable moments in my life.It’s impossible to forget.I have experienced many crushes,but this one is crazy.i never thought it would go like this. Almost everyone knows how it feels to be rejected,and everyone has a different story.
And now I’m at the time when I should really turn my head to the front.i walked though, but I keep memorizing the sweet memories which being the reasons why I hold back.If I look back,I realize I never really free for saying/expressing myself.It’s a big shame!.
I did not choose to be like this.Being a person who is so afraid of communicating with people that I thought would find it hard to make friends with me.Yes, I’m such downer,low self-confidence person,and..a person who always block everything that comes to her.I block many changes,good opportunities,even I block people that I love.There’s something weird inside me.I always assume they’ll do the least they can do for me.i assume they are bad,like me.
If I want to blame something,it’s not because of me two years ago,or six years ago..but many..many times ago.But it shouldn’t be a problem right? I can’t change my past.
So listen ‘you’,I have put you in my heart for the longest than everyone else,maybe you notice something from the past or maybe not,but it meant something for me,maybe a lot.sometimes I change myself for you even not for a long time.All the ‘meaningful’ facebook statuses,all the chat..all the stare,it’s like when everytime I went to campus I worried about having a chance to meet you..i don’t know why you seem like hate me.but for you I forget it.i forget that you didn’t treat me that well.i know I didn’t treat you like I wanted to,well just so you know..in my life it’s not a shocking thing,I used to act in reverse.i can’t understand myself too.so please,don’t you ever think that I don’t like you and I labeled you just as ordinary folk.
About the other boy? I wanted to move on.because my mind’s still working,and it’s telling me that you’re not interested in me..and hate me,and you’re not good enough for me and also not worth the feeling.So I choosed to forget you and used a different and new diary.I failed,again I’m being a bitch who likes too hurt people’s feeling.You made me made a promise to myself that someday if I love someone else, I would act like I love him.Leaves a lil dignity.
But turns out until now I still have that hope. And all this assumptions in my head,they are killing me slowly and softly(err yea just like the song).”oh so all this time he’s been using me”,”oh he’s no longer see anything in me,that’s why he..”,”oh I knew it”….it makes the worst me.
I can’t guarantee or of course hoping that after I write all of this I can magically change and forget it all.
So this case is also a big lesson to know my self better,especially the fears.
You could act like you didn’t hurt me but it changes me,it changes who I wanted to be.So ‘you’,I left all my hopes in the past…I don’t know the future.even just tomorrow.But yes,people hope..they get hurt,but one thing I know is the people who are strong and succeed are those who dare to be in pain.
So let’s make a new hope,hope that I’ll find someone who is worth suffering for and most importantly someone who doesn’t make me somebody else.

gloomy days please go away

2010-09-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

And youre so tired you dont sleep at night
As your heart is trying to mend
You keep it quiet but you think you might
Disappear before the end

- Song for you, Alexi Murdoch

Maybe if i try i'll change

2010-08-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

If being alone now means getting to know better of myself, then.. maybe it’s not so bad.
Maybe human,or maybe it’s just me,I will never be satisfied of affection and love that people have tried to give me….from my parents,my sisters,my friends,and from other people.I always asking more.and always thought it’s not enough.
That’s what makes me lonely.
‘feel’ lonely.
I always see things just based on my prespective.It’s hard for me to try to be in other’s people shoes. What I see and care,is only me,me,me,and me.
Eventhough sometimes I can become too cruel with myself too.But I think it’s also a part of my ignorance.
Sometimes, I beg Allah for ‘slap’ me with something.Anything to change the way I see things,the way i live my life.To live my life with all my heart.But sometimes,most times…I also gave up and begged ,”God,stop this!”.
I remembered last time, I reacted way too much by saying stupid things to my friends that might have hurted them.
I remembered just now,when I realized I am the real ‘chicken’ because I can’t admit that I was wrong and I don’t have any gut to say sorry.Even that persons are important to me.
I am blind.
Until I dare to hurt myself that bad.
It’s unforgettable.
Living in this world where it could be so silent and too noisy, is painful.
But I’m still alive,I have to hold on right?
Make things right..?
Even just a tiny difference, I’m begging to achieve it!
You know, I’m still trying to get myself thinner. I work out everyday, eat boiled food, hold my appetite for snacks and greasy food.It’s tiring, but I can stand it.
One thing bugging me is, then..what will I get when I get thinner?
If love is what I seek, then maybe it’s not ‘so’ important.
All this time I’ve been lonely, and I don’t want it goes to a waste,when finally at the end I will just try to change my looks for someone?! Someone that I don’t even know. Or actually maybe it’s not for someone,maybe it’s for nothing.
I mean,I have friends and family who loves me for what I am.
The messy me,a cad,me..who is not too girly,a dreamer,a person who’ve done a lot of crazy and dumb things.they accepted it that way, even though they don’t know me that well, I guess they don’t care about it.They still want to be with me.
I have to stop comparing myself to other.i am different.this is my life.everyone has their own way.this is cliché maybe..but that’s the way it is.
So lately,when I see many people made their own big mistakes,somehow..i can forgive them easily without mocking and said bad things behind or front of them.Even the meanest man in this world might have a chance to find a light,and on the other side the most saint people in this world might have made a big mistake that even hard for them to forgive themselves.
So I’ll try not to push everything,trying to control everything,trying to get all the things that I want that might leads me to do some bad things,envy things that don’t matter,yet also not to belittle things in my life.Cheer for every happiness.
Maybe if I try,I’ll change.
Aaaamiiin.

Dare to be hated

2010-08-13T00:53:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been scared because you just did a right choice?
I mean like telling the truth? Well, telling the truth is obviously frightening sometimes…but what if you tell someone/everybody the things you believe could help people but then you feel scared/worried.
Okay,I think you are getting confused. There are times when I just don’t care about what people see/might say behind my back when I did something that I thought the best to do, but there are also times when I care a lot.
Look, I wish I didn’t care about you all.I wish I could just live by myself alone and could still be happy,but that’s impossible right?
There are times when I do things just because to impress people, but this is different.I just thought, it is better to do than just complaining about everyday life or say something on fb/twitter that other people wouldn’t understand…I try to just fulfilling my duty to share some knowledge (in Islam we called it Amar Ma’ruf Nahi Munkar)
Look, I know that I’m not a saint or something close to it, i wish I could just made a normal stat like before. But the fact is ,I didn’t.
And about me persuading all of you to wear hijab, …when I tell my sist/other people who is younger than me about this,it’s not so difficult…but when I tell the whole friends who are not just younger than me,I think almost all of my friends on fb are older than me,people would call me a wiseacre!..
That’s the honest guilty feeling that maybe came from my devil side, to think that telling/doing the right things is wrong!
No one want to be called as a wiseacre, but most importantly..now I know,the things that I’ve done just some hours ago is nothing compared to people who fight their voice to protect something/someone precious because it’s the best thing to do even the whole world hate that. And I still have a tiny guts to do it.
I shouldn’t feel worried just because I didn’t get the responds that I wanted.
This is just a simple thing.
And I think, it’s all in my head.
I judge myself.
I made this judgment.
So..maybe it’s better to keep going like this,so …just to prove that I’m not doing these just for a moment or just to impress you…..i want to make this into a part of me.This is what I do.
Hey,everyone can dream right?
You can roll your eyes over, I can too,but there must be a time when instead of rolling my eyes over, I shook my head..and breath.

Smile or a hi for strangers

2010-07-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

Kalo di kampung,lagi jalan-jalan biasa,ga kenal orang lain disitu,ga kerasa jadi stranger.

Baru jalan bentar, ada yang ngeklakson sambil senyum. Padahal ga kenal. "mau kemana neng?". Udah suasananya dingin disana, orang-orangnya ramah dan sangat friendly..siapa yang ga betah?

Beda banget begitu balik ke kota.Jangankan sama orang asing, sama yang udah dikenal aja dianggap hantu,main jalan aja.

Culture shock.

Semoga berhasil yang namanya 'smile for strangers', 'ngajak kenalan duluan'...gak takut-takut kayak gini.

ga enak.

Ini di Indonesia,yang katanya penduduknya ramah-ramah. Sama tetangga aja dingin.huhh.

Let's change it btw :)

Pemberontakan di Surga?

2010-07-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

"
Kebahagiaan adalah jihad. Perjuangan memenangkan perang melawan iblis, yakni nafsunya sendiri. Kebahagian ada di saat kita bisa memberikan sepotong roti pada orang yang kelaparan. Begitulah, hidup akan terasa bermakna. Ada yang kaya, ada yang miskin, ada pekerja keras, ada si pemalas, ada kuat dan ada lemah.

Kini, semua makna kebahagiaan itu telah sirna, justru saat ia berada di surga. Sebab manakala roda kehidupan hanya berputar searah, semuanya kaya, tak ada raut kesedihan, tak ada keringat perjuangan.Hidup seperti pada panen tak sudah-sudah, bergelimng kemewahan yang tak ada ujungnya. "

Farisi- lorong kematian (Aguk Irawan)

Going back!

2010-06-30T22:27:00.000-07:00

Hi, i know i said that i move to tumblr.But i've changed my mind,i want to continue writing here..heheh not really writing,but i try to stick in the theme 'simple joy of life'.Even though i can't guarantee if sometime i also put in some of my lame stories,haha.

Ok whatever,so...please wait for the new posts,bye :)

moving

2010-02-17T23:07:00.000-08:00

Hiii....i move to tumblr, it has the same concept as this blog...yeahh all about simple joy of life...and i know i have too many blogs....from now, i will only maintain my tumblr and multiply...see ya all there ;)

Useless

2010-02-04T00:30:00.000-08:00

I wake up this morning
feel useless already
the beam of the sun is not for me
it's holiday
but my life span's still easing up
i put my dreams away from me
but it's still there
i'm ashamed
i can try for something
battling for it
it's been a long time i haven't been on struggle
struggle persevering things i've been looking for
what am i looking for, btw?

silly sign

2009-12-19T00:12:00.000-08:00

weird stuff

2009-11-28T04:52:00.000-08:00

i get stumbled at stumbleupon,and i find some interesting things
i want one of these,especially the clocky alarm clock:
just see it at:

and i want this bike:hahahaa

and i want this teddy bear lamp :)

and this bags,haha

What can you do to Improve your Self Image?

2009-11-20T07:11:00.000-08:00

1. List things you like about yourself - include appearance, personality and skills
2. Change negative thoughts to positive ones by focusing on the positive and forgetting the negative things that happen to you
3. Remember compliments and note them down
4. Try the powerful method of self-hypnosis: Building your self esteem - self hypnosis download
It will really help you!
5. Question whether your view of yourself is accurate. and why you see yourself like you do
6. Make changes that will help you ;for example, clothes, appearance, hair style and behaviour
7. Accept things about yourself that are true and learn to think about them in a positive way
8. Get exercise - you will look and feel better! more about self image and exercise
9. Take yourself less seriously and lighten up!
10. Accept criticism constructively so you can move forward and improve yourself
11. Don’t be limited by your internal image, step outside of it and break free, it doesn’t have to control you or keep you down. Acting differently will change how others respond towards you and will help change your attitude towards yourself and your abilities
12. Take on challenges positively and surprise yourself!

Other Side Of The World

2009-11-14T18:28:00.000-08:00

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

The fire fades away

Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

The fire fades away

KT-Tunstall

Doin' Statistic homework by jumping around?

2009-11-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

One bloody night before Statistic test....
i sent Zen a SMS:
"zen,km udah no.4 blum?" (

Zen replied:
"belum,nih kita ngerjainnya loncat-loncat.."

I replied back innocently:
"HAH? ngapain pada loncat-loncat? aneh bgt.."

Tuut tuut tuut tuut (NOKIA's SMS ringtone played)
" -___-" maksudnya ngerjainnya loncat loncat soal gitu"

I dont know why i could think like that, maybe it's statistic effect..
-_____-

Questions

2009-11-01T02:20:00.000-08:00

im on second week of midterm tests...
im pulling all i can at the rest of the night,hehee..
but, it's tiring,killing,desperating...i know,i've been doing it for a long time ...so it takes more than words to make me change.but i've got too..coz i need it.if i want to be really 'smart' then i have to quit being an all nighter..
but as Oprah said,"what did u do differently?"...there must be something i do differently..

so i push myself and plan to be a good student,you know..study regularly..not just when i have quiz or big test..bcos i want to study for my future,i want study become my need..and beside im already at my third semester, which is getting closer and closer to ...the end of my college life..hahah, i know it's still long,but i want to apply for some scholarship...which means i have to prepare..arghhhhh...
ok enuff bullshitting..

now is random mode:
and bahasa mode,hahah..
jadi gini,akhir-akhir ini saya cuman menyadari beberapa hal,seperti:
1.Apakah mengsinkronisasi hidup dengan social network/microblog(tau kan apa?hehe) itu sangat-sangat penting?

2.kenapa saya ga eksis?(hahah) eksis disini bukan yang sok-sok sibuk gt..tapi eksis dalam berkarya..weisss,naon si..ya pokoknya gitulah

3.Gimana kalo 10 tahun kedepan saya ga berubah2?
4.What do i want?
5.Apa-apa aja hal yang penting dan worth buat gw kejar?
6.Apakah mereka benar-benar sahabat saya?
7.I dont want to be a self centered!!
8.Kenapa banyak banget orang diet mati2an..tanpa mempertanyakan apakah cara dietnya itu benar atau tidak? sayabener2sebelmengutukorangyangdietasalasalan...
9.Have u studied? belummmmmm

okayyy...blajar dulu ya gw...biar ga nyesel,biar gw bisa dapet bagus,dan yang paling penting...yng tadi gw bilang itu....berhenti blajar asal-asalan...bye peeps...

Presentation skills (Random part)

2009-10-27T03:55:00.000-07:00

im on UTS...baru hari ke-2...doakan saya dapet nilai yang sempurna yaah...im breakin' my leg now,,hahaha
btw, tadi iseng2 liat di youtube tentang good presentation gt..yaa...pengen bisa ngebawa presentasi yang asik tapi ga berlebihan aja.secara, di kelas sering banget presentasi..(Sedang menggunakan bahasa asal).Soo...i just wanna share the links:

know him guys??hehe

okayy,,yang ini gw kira mau bandingin antara good presentation sama poor presentation,ternyata gw salah baca:

Lille

2009-10-18T22:34:00.000-07:00

He went to sea, for the day
He wanted to know what to say
When he asked what he'd done
In the past, to someone
That he loved, endlessly
Now she's gone, and so is he.

I went to war, every morning
I lost my way, but now i'm following
What you said in my arms
What i read in the charms
That i loved, durably
Now it's dead and gone
And i am free.

I went to sleep, for the daytime
I shut my eyes, to the sunshine
Turned my head away from the noise
Bruise and drip decay of childish toys
That i love, arguably
All our labouring, gone to seed.

We went out to play, for the evening
We wanted to hold on to the feeling
And the stretch, in the sun
And the breathlessness as we run
To the beach, endlessly
As the sun creeps up on the sea

by Lisa hannigan

musicorium

2009-10-18T06:14:00.001-07:00

sedang digilai musik-musik dari :
OWL CITY

LOVE PSYCHEDElICO

RAVEX

KATE NASH

yaa kira-kira lagu-lagu dari mereka lah yang membuat gw sedikit ansos...karna udah didunia sendiri aja deh kalo udah dengerin mereka..hhahah...btw, hve u joined last.fm?
it's good site, social site...im too lazt to explain,just jump into it... :)

love

2009-10-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
— Neil Gaiman

jangan cuma diam

2009-10-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

Disaat gw kecewa sama sesuatu, emang pengen banget rasanya langsung ngomong ke orang yang bersangkutan ttg masalahnya.Bukan marah-marah, tapi ngejelasin semuanya.Tapi gw takut dibilang “alah, kayak lo sempurna aja”…iya gw juga kadang2 bikin salah,kadang bikin kesalahan yang fatal…tapi gw berusaha untuk ga ngecewain org lain. I mean u have this responsibilities yang emang wajib lo kerjain, dan org itu udah percaya sama lo, dan lo juga udah nyanggupin tugas yang dikasih itu.Tapi…ternyata semua itu cuman keluar dimulut doang!yg rugi tuh bukan cuma org yg lari dari tgg jawab itu aja,tapi org yang ngasih tgg.jawabnya juga,dan org2 lain diluar itu.Tapi siapa gw mau nasehatin org seenaknya,lo juga ga suka kan kalo ada org ga begitu deket tiba2 nyeramahin lo…tapi bukan berarti lo ga boleh marah dan nyeramahin,kalo emang diperluin ya MARAH AJA! Kita kan punya tugas untuk Amal Ma’ruf Nahi Munkar…dan gw udah cukup berpengalaman sama org2 yang belum bisa menghargai org lain ini dan sebenernya mereka juga ga ngehargain diri mereka sendiri…gw udah MUAK,capek,bosen berhadapan sama org2 kayak gini…Makanya gw jadi berprinsip…gw mau toleransi which means dia mau dihargain dan dimengerti tapi kalo pada akhirnya dia ga ngehargain kita dan dia itu SALAH…apa kita masih bias bilang “oh yaudah gapapa…” tapi mencak2 dalem hati “EGHH DASAR LO!AWAS AJA NANTI…bladida”…daripada kayak gitu mending ngomong langsung aja kan…emg si belum tentu cara kita itu diterima baik sama dia, niat baik belum tentu dianggep baik ama org laen….Tapi coba inget kalo ortu cerewet nyuruh anaknya sholat…ampe beribu kali mungkin ada ngingetin kita buat sholat…kita yang denger..eghhh gondoknya bukan maen…sebel lah…mungkin mikir “iya2…pasti sholat kok, I know what I have to do!”…tapi wlopun nyebelin…omongan2 ortu itu akhirnya bikin kita shlat kan??....nah sama kayak kasus yang tadi…gw berusaha untuk ga kayak anak kecil yang pengennya ditegur ama ortu dengan cara manja2an “hen, ayooo….nanti dosa loh…” buat gw sih itu udah ga mempan,gw si ngaku aja…kadang mlah ortu dah teriak2 kitanya tetep susah ngelakuin apa yang disuruh kan(tentunya hal2 yang baik)…emang intinya gw sangat kesal dengan orang-orang yang lupa sama kewjiban mereka dan didepan org2 yang percaya sama dia mereka ngebohongin dan ngekhianatin kepercayaan yang udah dikasih….
Papah gw pernah bilang kalo jadi org yang memanage sesuatu tugas/pekerjaan dan punya bawahan yang punya tugas masing demi satu tujuan/goal yang udah diset oleh si manajer itu atau oleh si bos,,bukan berarti kita tinggal nyuruh2 bawahan , kamu kerja ini..itu..yang a…yang b…trus udah tinggal duduk2 nunggu bawahan selesai kerja….kerjaan bias ancur kalo ga dipantau,manager itu harus tau progress pekerjaannya gimana..jadi kalo ada hal2 yang ga beres bias diantisipasi/dibenerin dari awal….okay….i’ve enuff talkin’…
So guys…Jangan pernah takut buat ngasih tau,memarahi,menegur, orang-orang disekeliling kita yang emang salah…dan memarahi disini bukan tereak2,jambak2an…tapi menegur dengan lebih keras..hehe….Kita harus belajar tegas..ya…be-la-jar….okay segitu aja dulu… 

"Seven Blunders of the World"

2009-10-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

"Seven Blunders of the World"

1. Wealth without work

2. Pleasure without conscience

3. Knowledge without character

4. Commerce without morality

5. Science without humanity

6. Worship without sacrifice

7. Politics without principle

—Mahatma Gandhi

currently doing: my taskssssss!!!!!!!! and will get busy with mid tests, wish me luck guys! ^^

Book-starving

2009-10-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

Recent books i read:
1)Life of Pi

2)Daniel isn't talking

i'll be posting the review soon, now reading the 2nd book :))

Phobia 2

2009-09-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

Happy is the current mood of today. My girlfriend Zen is having a birthday today at 30 of September...she's 19 now.Happy bday zen..hahah..what makes me happy is..i successfully convinced her and Tika to watched Phobia 2, FYI zen thought that Phobia 2 was actually a comedy..!! and..i dunno why i said the truth to her that day..maybe my normal/straight spirit possessed me *yeah, bcoz usually it's my freakish and evil soul that possessed me*...it would satisfied me more if i was lying..soo sooo...i wont talk about the movie..but IT'S WORTH WATCHING!U WONT BE DISSAPOINTED!..that's what i thought about the movie...eventhough...eventhough..i hate the maddening and annoying sound of typical horror movies...*pleeaasee jangan bayangin film Indo..hahah,,yang ini jauh lebih parah...*so along the movie i shutted my ears more than ma eyes...i always opened my eyes...hahah...cool isn't it?..yes,of course (Say it!)..hmm, jadinya malah beneran bahas filmya kayaknya..

So the movie is nothing until u hear this,well read this..
There's this person(just called her Wulwul) who shutted her eyes for almost the rest of the movie..she prefered to asked ..(err just called her jenjen) jenjen about what's happening on the movie...and sang butterfly by miley to what she called as a relaxer...i think it's better than she sang "cari jodoh" or any dangdut remix of her..wtf.she finally dared to see the last part of the movie-which is..err,kinda funny..not kinda...but insanely funny...but she didnt realize that it's her that actually funny..

woww it's kinda late...coz i need to review bank and financial institution(weeh...keren kalo di inggrisin..*norak*)...
so gotta off..hahah...sorry it's really 'seadanya'...byee.. :)

liburanlebaran

2009-09-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

titleless

2009-09-13T09:14:00.000-07:00

“i think that’s what i find most strange about this world
is that nobody ever says how they feel.
they hurt, but they don’t cry out.
they’re happy, but they dont dance or jump around.
and they’re angry but they hardly ever scream.
because they feel ashamed.
nothings worse than that.
so we all walk around with our heads looking down
and never look up and see how beautiful the sky is.”

i got it from http://staree.tumblr.com/page/4

Idle-less

2009-08-31T00:47:00.001-07:00

Procrastinating.lazying around.idling.those are the things that often to come on these days.i want to change.i want to stop wasting my time.it's already September.and i've done nothing but shits.heggh...

I promise:
-wont just laying on my bed and listening to musics for hours,and do nothing

-should internet less.by cellphone especially.

I think these two things suck up my time the most..so,better work on it..

SMILE

2009-08-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

haha,,kemaren sengaja bongkar-bongkar isi laci..nemu kertas-kertas binder...wuehhh,isinya banyak rumus2 ginih hehe...nemuin kertas isinya puisi gt...sebenernya bukan puisi sih...tapi sok2 puitis gt..hahaha...ini nih isinya

i live my life today. as i used to
Tied my shoes, so i can jump away
Though i fall to the same place again
My heart still believe in all my dreams

that's what made me smile
oh smile

everyday is like a punishment
still face the "mean" faces
strengthen my heart
though my friends not here

Oh..come on ...Smile
SMILE!!!

Listen to your heart...it's not that bad
i know you're strong
i know i'm strong
i know...I can!!!
Just smile to your future...SMILE!!

what's with the long face?

2009-08-18T21:25:00.000-07:00

Qmaria Syam Paiwa Palawa:

Jiwa Manusia SEperti Samudra, Apa yang tampak di permukaan beda dg yg ada di dlm samudra.. tenang tak berarti tak bergejolak, bahagia tak berarti tak menyimpan luka, tertawa tak berarti tak menyimpan tangis, hening tak berarti tak menyimpan amarah......Dst. dan tugas kita untuk terus berusaha agar bisa membuat yang didalam samudera setenang luar samudera, sebening dan sebiru luarnya... Semoga BISA..amiennn..SEMANGAT.^_^

status temen di fb,penyemangat siang hari yang panas,hectic,dan menyebalkan...
SEMANGATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!yeahh!!!!!!!

not useless talk--but yeah,what a wasted time dialogue

2009-08-18T20:57:00.000-07:00

Kartika Wulandari has joined the conference.

funnytinybunny has joined the conference.

guy_cecilsugoi: eh pas aku klik yg prs kok ga ada menkeu sama yg lain?
funnytinybunny: eh kamu udah klik submit ???
funnytinybunny: jangan dulu eh
Kartika Wulandari: aku udah klik submit...
funnytinybunny: liat jadwal dulu coba
Kartika Wulandari: hen,, klik yg angka 3
guy_cecilsugoi: ak juga udah keburu submit
funnytinybunny: semua jadwal
Kartika Wulandari: aku juga ditawarinnya itu...
Kartika Wulandari: ya kalo ga submit ga bisa masuk.
funnytinybunny: yah dasar aku nungguin kalian tau
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudah klik aja,,
funnytinybunny: tahun kebrapa nih ?
guy_cecilsugoi: itu ada tik yg smua jadwal jmnya
funnytinybunny: eeh mau ambil apa nh ??
funnytinybunny: kok ga ada mankeu ?
funnytinybunny: ooh ada ding
funnytinybunny: manajemen keuangan kan ?
Kartika Wulandari: eh,, aku dapet info dari fb.
Kartika Wulandari: untuk melihat jadwal seluruh kelas, bs di ambil di fotocopyan kampus
Kartika Wulandari: najis!!
Kartika Wulandari: gmn ini????
guy_cecilsugoi: iya ,,mslhnya sekarang cari jadwal yg ga bentrok
Kartika Wulandari: siapa yg udah pulang????
funnytinybunny: eeh ada jadwalnya di simak
guy_cecilsugoi: GOBLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
funnytinybunny: klik jadwal kuliah-E
Kartika Wulandari: bentar
funnytinybunny: eh jadwal kuliah-semua
guy_cecilsugoi: kelas smua kan>
funnytinybunny: manke klas E hari rabu loh
guy_cecilsugoi: soalnya kan mau bandingin kelas yg mana yg pas
funnytinybunny: mau ambil ga ?
funnytinybunny: iyaa klas semua
Kartika Wulandari: menkeu kelas E.
Kartika Wulandari: satunya apa?
Kartika Wulandari: manjar kan???
Kartika Wulandari: manjar yg rabu kelas apa?
funnytinybunny: iya
funnytinybunny: manjar mau klas apa ??
funnytinybunny: eh apa mau ambil jadwal slasa habis jam 1 ??
Kartika Wulandari: ntar kalo ada tugas ribet ga?
Kartika Wulandari: kalo ada kuis?
guy_cecilsugoi: bener tuh
Kartika Wulandari: mendingan rabu aja..
funnytinybunny: yawda dah
funnytinybunny: manke hari rabu jam brapa ???
guy_cecilsugoi: masalahnya 3 sks pula,,
Kartika Wulandari: takut otak n fisiknya ga kuat zee...
funnytinybunny: kelas E ???
funnytinybunny: manke kelas E nih ?
Kartika Wulandari: oia,, manjar mau yg jam 7 atau setengah sepuluh?
guy_cecilsugoi: itu bukannya dari jam 1 sampe 5.30?
guy_cecilsugoi: 15.30
funnytinybunny: iyaiyaa manke kelas E brati ??
Kartika Wulandari: iya mankeu kelas E
funnytinybunny: ehh
Kartika Wulandari: baru 33 orang kok...
funnytinybunny: mankeu kelas f aja yuk
Kartika Wulandari: aku mau confirm nihg\...
funnytinybunny: jam 7 nih..soalnya kalo kelas E mankeunya jam 1siang...]
funnytinybunny: eeeh mankeu kelas F yuuuk
guy_cecilsugoi: jam 7 ada?bentar hari ap gt
funnytinybunny: kelas F jam 7 nih
Kartika Wulandari: sama hari rabu.
guy_cecilsugoi: oh iy2
funnytinybunny: EEEH BENTAR TIK
guy_cecilsugoi: pagi aja tuh
Kartika Wulandari: berarti kita ngeduluin mankeu baru manjar?
Kartika Wulandari: okok.
funnytinybunny: iya pagi aja yuk
Kartika Wulandari: MANKEU : KELAS E
funnytinybunny: kelas F liat...mankeu jam 7
Kartika Wulandari: MANKEU KELAS F
guy_cecilsugoi: iya kelas f aja,pagi soalnya
funnytinybunny: KELAS F
Kartika Wulandari: MANJAR KELAS APA?
funnytinybunny: IYAAA mankeu kelas F yaa brati ??
Kartika Wulandari: OK.
Kartika Wulandari:
Kartika Wulandari: MANJAR?
funnytinybunny: brati sekarang contreng mankeu kelas F yah ???
guy_cecilsugoi: bentar tik
funnytinybunny: manjar tu manajemen penyelenggaraan jaringan kan ???
Kartika Wulandari: hey,, mau milih apa lagi?
Kartika Wulandari: kayknya iya.
Kartika Wulandari: atau au millih yg lain?
Kartika Wulandari: *mau
funnytinybunny: katanya manajemen penyelenggaraan ajringaan...
funnytinybunny: ada tuh kelas H, hari rabu jam 09.30
guy_cecilsugoi: iya tik,slain manjar apa yg enak yh
Kartika Wulandari: iya abis pertimbangannya bisa ngambil kelas yg diatasnya lagi...
Kartika Wulandari: ada manlog.
guy_cecilsugoi: cuman itu ya?
Kartika Wulandari: katanya itu juga...
guy_cecilsugoi: manlog...
Kartika Wulandari: kalo PP katanya mati.
funnytinybunny: mau ambil apaa niiih ???
Kartika Wulandari: ga tau PP apaan...
Kartika Wulandari: iya cuma 3..
funnytinybunny: ooh penganngaran perusahaan ?
guy_cecilsugoi: Manajemen Logistik dan Pemeliharaan Telekomunikasi ( LOG ) ?
guy_cecilsugoi: ada hari senin tuh
funnytinybunny: mau yang mana nih ??? manlog apa manjar ??
Kartika Wulandari: iya kalo pp kayaknya itu.
funnytinybunny: heen jangan senin pls !!!
funnytinybunny: RABU ajaa
Kartika Wulandari: ho oh manlog itu panjangannya..
Kartika Wulandari: biar sabtu-senin libur.
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudee
Kartika Wulandari: jadi biar kuliahnya selasa-jum'at.
guy_cecilsugoi: jadi mau dipadetin rabu nih?
Kartika Wulandari: mau apa nih?
Kartika Wulandari: yupz!! rabu...
funnytinybunny: eehh manlog kelas E
Kartika Wulandari: rabu tah zee?
funnytinybunny: rabu jam 09.30 nih..manlog kelas E
guy_cecilsugoi: busettttttt...brarti kluar mankeu lsg..?
guy_cecilsugoi: at yg jam 1 aj?
guy_cecilsugoi: biar bisa istirahat gt..?
Kartika Wulandari: itu manlog tah?
funnytinybunny: eeehh
guy_cecilsugoi: yoi
Kartika Wulandari: ada jeda aja mendingan..
Kartika Wulandari: biar otaknya ga ngebul.
guy_cecilsugoi: brarti yg jam 1
funnytinybunny: yg lain mankeu kelas g
Kartika Wulandari: gmn? manlog apa manjar?
guy_cecilsugoi: manlog aj
guy_cecilsugoi: ada jadwalnya
funnytinybunny: eh si gusti,ela,viki mankeu kelas G
funnytinybunny: mankeu mau tetep F apa G ???
guy_cecilsugoi: F aj
guy_cecilsugoi: biar deh pagi
funnytinybunny: okeeeyyy
guy_cecilsugoi: eh tapiii
funnytinybunny: mankeu brati kelas F yaahhh
guy_cecilsugoi: kan manlognya jam 1 siang yh?
funnytinybunny: eh mau ambil PP ngga ??
guy_cecilsugoi: jadi apa ga nunggu kelamaan?
Kartika Wulandari: woy,, tadi yg bunuh diri bukan pp tapi MP.
Kartika Wulandari: aduh...jadi apaan nih?
funnytinybunny: JADI DEALNYA GINI YAAA
Kartika Wulandari: banyak keinginan tapi sks tak memadai.
Kartika Wulandari: haha...
guy_cecilsugoi: jadi klo ngambil yg kelas g jedaa 1 jam gt...?
funnytinybunny: MANKEU --KELAS F
Kartika Wulandari: gmn?
Kartika Wulandari: zee gusti ngambil apa aja?
funnytinybunny: HEYHEY DEALNYA GMN NIH ??AYOO BURUAN KEBURU KEISI KUOTANYA
guy_cecilsugoi: tapi kalo kls E jeda sktr 2set jam,,,
funnytinybunny: gusti ngambil mankeu klas G, PP kelas E
Kartika Wulandari: MANKEU KELAS F MANLOG KELAS?
funnytinybunny: manlog kelas E aja gmn ??
funnytinybunny: kelas E manlog hari rabu jam 09.30
Kartika Wulandari: yg penting bisa sekelas.
guy_cecilsugoi: zhen,,,kuat gt?
Kartika Wulandari: wow11
funnytinybunny: kuat apaan ??
Kartika Wulandari: TAKUT.
guy_cecilsugoi: iya lsg gt
guy_cecilsugoi: takut knp tika?
funnytinybunny: jadi ???
funnytinybunny: maunya ??
funnytinybunny: ehh ngambil manlog apa pp nih ??
funnytinybunny: anak@ pada pp..
Kartika Wulandari: jgn deketan gitu..
Kartika Wulandari: cz ga tau susahnya...
funnytinybunny: okeyokeey
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudah mau yg mana MANKEU kelas F ,MANLOG kelas I.....ato MANKEU kls G,,,MANLOG kelas I??
funnytinybunny: makeu kelas F aja dah hen
funnytinybunny: biar pagi..biar lebih fresh
guy_cecilsugoi: bener yah
funnytinybunny: manlog nih jadinya ?? ngga PP ??
guy_cecilsugoi: tapi kita nunggu sktr 2 setgh jam gpp yah?
Kartika Wulandari: aku makeu sama manlog aja deh.
Kartika Wulandari: kamu hen?
guy_cecilsugoi: eh iya ih,,manlog ad telekmunikasinya..
funnytinybunny: okee
guy_cecilsugoi: ga minat
funnytinybunny: BRATI DEALNYAAA
guy_cecilsugoi: BENTARRRR
Kartika Wulandari: MANKEU kelas F ,MANLOG kelas I
guy_cecilsugoi: WOYYYYYYY
funnytinybunny: MANKEU KELAS F
guy_cecilsugoi: manlog telekomunikasi woy
guy_cecilsugoi: mau gt
funnytinybunny: WOOYY TRUS GMN ?? MANKEU UDAH FIX KELAS F
funnytinybunny: YAWDAH MAUNYA APAAA??
guy_cecilsugoi: iya,,mnkeu kelas F
Kartika Wulandari: mau pipis....
Kartika Wulandari: cepetan apaan?
Kartika Wulandari: tentukan!!
guy_cecilsugoi: tapi PP atoi manlog?soalnya manlog ada telekomuks,,,
Kartika Wulandari: nahan pipis nih...
funnytinybunny: eh kalian amsi dicontreng kan amnkeu kelas F apa udah ambil ?
funnytinybunny: masih..MANKEU kelas F kalian masi nyontreng apa udah ambil ?
Kartika Wulandari: baru nyontreng.
Kartika Wulandari: mau pp tah?
funnytinybunny: okeee
funnytinybunny: jadi maunya PP apa MANLOG ????
Kartika Wulandari: katanya manlog mudah.
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudah manlog aj
funnytinybunny: yawdah manlog
funnytinybunny: manlog kelas apa nih ????
Kartika Wulandari: itu katanya lho...
Kartika Wulandari: katanya I tadi..
funnytinybunny: manlog kelas F
guy_cecilsugoi: F juga ya?...F ama I sama jadwalnya yah?
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudh manlog F
funnytinybunny: F aja..biar uasnya pagi ntar..kan kelas atas
funnytinybunny: heheh
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudah F
guy_cecilsugoi: MANKEU & MANLOG kels F
Kartika Wulandari: jadi,, manlog sama mankeu kelas f nih?
funnytinybunny: lagian di 4D..sama klasnya sm mankeu
guy_cecilsugoi: yaudah k DEALLLL yAAAA
funnytinybunny: okeeee BRATI DEALNYA..MANKEU & MANLOG KELAS F
guy_cecilsugoi: okay dalam hitungan ke3 kita submit
guy_cecilsugoi: hehe
Kartika Wulandari: ok deal.
funnytinybunny: OKEE SKARANG TINGGAL KLIK AMBIL KAN ??
guy_cecilsugoi: yuph
guy_cecilsugoi: liat2 dulu,di check
guy_cecilsugoi: SM532063 - Manajemen Keuangan
Kartika Wulandari has left the conference.

funnytinybunny: KALIAN UDAH KLIK AMBIL ??
guy_cecilsugoi: udah
funnytinybunny: SM532063 - Manajemen Keuangan 3 F
guy_cecilsugoi: yuph
funnytinybunny: SM541053 - Manajemen Logistik dan Pemeliharaan Telekomunikasi 3 F
funnytinybunny: IYA KAAN ??
guy_cecilsugoi: yuphhhh
funnytinybunny: eh si tika manaa ??
guy_cecilsugoi: bentar lg nlpn k
guy_cecilsugoi: ak
funnytinybunny: sama kan sama kalian..??
funnytinybunny: SM532063 - Manajemen Keuangan 3 F
guy_cecilsugoi: iya sama
funnytinybunny: SM541053 - Manajemen Logistik dan Pemeliharaan Telekomunikasi 3 F
funnytinybunny: mau di simpan sementara apa selesai regist nih ??
guy_cecilsugoi: slesai aj ya
Kartika Wulandari has joined the conference.

guy_cecilsugoi: kan udah tuh
guy_cecilsugoi: helooooww
guy_cecilsugoi: jadi slesai reg ya
guy_cecilsugoi: tika???
Kartika Wulandari: simpan sementara atau selesai registrasi?
guy_cecilsugoi: slesai aja,,,Insya Allah udah ga ada slah2
Kartika Wulandari: ok selesai registrasi.
Kartika Wulandari: udah.
Kartika Wulandari: udah belum?
guy_cecilsugoi: Alhamdulillah
guy_cecilsugoi: udah2
Kartika Wulandari: Alhamdulillah..mankeu n manlog.
Kartika Wulandari has left the conference.

guy_cecilsugoi: yuph,,,brp lama c kita ngomongin ini
guy_cecilsugoi: ckckck

Kawat gigi pakenya dimana ya?

2009-08-13T01:32:00.001-07:00

Saya akan memakai kawat gigi!ahaha,akhirnya setelah sekian lama yg udah direncanain dari zaman smp,bru sekarang bener2 srius nyiap2in,ya ke dokter gigi,ya rontgen,ya cabut gigi..

Ok,the point is there is sumthin funny and weird about the 1st appointment with the dentist,..

Jadi terakhir kali ketemu ama drg.ema(yg juga alumni 8) dia bilang gigi graham yg patah dan ga bisa dichrome musti dicabut dan musti rontgen gigi dulu karna masih ada gigi susu yg ngalangin gigi dewasa(tepatnya gigi taring gw)..yuph,aneh emang..si gigi susu ini masih kokoh bertengger di gusi atas sy..dammit dedemit!jadi sepertinya tu gigi musti dcabut juga,yg bikin khawatir bukan sakitnya,tapi entar gw bakal OMPONG! Karna gw dah liat di hasil rontgen gigi gw,si gg dwsa it udah tumbuh tapi nyerong gt,so pemikiran gw kalo gg susu gw it di cabut,OMG..nightmare!

Tuh kan gw jd lupa mau bilang hal lucunya..(saking nafsu ama tu gg susu)

jadi..c dokter nanya *setelah liat hasil rontgenan*:
"mau di kasih kawat dmn?"

gw: *rada bingung,jeda sekitar 5 detikan*
"hmm disini,dua2nya"*sambil nunjuk ke mulut gw*

drg:"engga,maksudnya mau sama dokter sp?"

gw:"ohh,blum tau..soalnya waktu it..blahblah.."*gw jwb dgn serius,karna gw malu berat saat it..dan tdk perlu bunyi2 ketawa kayak d acara komedi,fyi kita(gw ma adek gw,tia) udh nunggu 1stgh jam..so,jd rada sensi dan oon*

jgn kira gw biasa aj,gw ngakak abis2an tau didalem,dan walopun gw jawab dgn jwbn yg sok polos it dan djawab dgn serius jg oleh c dokternya..gw bs nebak tu dokter pasti udah berfikir "gila ni anak bego bener c,dimana2 pake kawat gigi ya di gigi!"

dan gw bsa merasakan hawa2 mau ketawa c tia,soalnya gw rada2 ngelirik gt ke dia,dan dia udah nyengir2 gt,tapi speechless..takt gw kasih panakol kali ya pas pulang nanti..hehe

jadi begitulah kira2 kisah memalukan dan tergoblok yg pernah sy rasain dihadapan org kurang dikenal,but yet another simple laughter/bahan ketawaan in my life..
=D

Lia's Bday--stop the selfishness

2009-08-12T07:22:00.000-07:00

so today is a special day because it's my sist's bday,lia. She's 9 years old rite now. since i'm on holiday, my mom asked me to go to the really small party(since only one student was there..hha) at Lia's school..btw, maybe u want to know..that my little sist has an autism. So, i really really wish that this year things would be going better.Aamiiinn...

so what kind of simple joy of life for today?
well, first im happy coz we are all in a very big spirit to make a change.Yes a change for lia.
especially me.i want to be a better sister for her...and lessen the whiny things to help or play with her, because sometimes i got so tired and busy with my own stuff then really less time for her. Big sorry. FYI, she's not capable of speaking yet..but somehow she just knows what people are talking about,especially when u're talking about her..haha...u know sometimes i feel so insecure in thinking about her future. I'm really worried....but i won't give up just yet...i have to give my best..i have to fight the laziness, anger,jealousy,selflessness.....i have to fight for it...

so this birthday is kinda the ring alert for me to do more thing for her...i will try my best, one thing i get from Bi yeti's lecture*ahaha..she told me that obstacle/pain/hindrance or everything that torturing is actually a test for us which the present could be a discount for our sins or maybe the heaven itself..as long as you face those torturing thing with sincerity just for Allah.Because sometimes problems are a way to make us more mature, testing our patience, maybe the first step of success, and many more unexpected opportunities. And her quotation is connected with a quotation from Al-Quran(sorry she forgot from what Surat) that only few people who choose the hard,curvy,hazardous,and difficult way than the easy peasy way.So, why don't we trying to be those few people??

it's never been easy..
but every time i want to give up..i'm just trying to remember that Allah is always near us and evil always try to find a way to trapped us,tricked us...to choose that easy way..okay,,so
CHEER!!! =))

wear it not use it

2009-08-10T02:17:00.000-07:00

one day my dad asked "si bibi or the housekeeper or whatever u called it" to cleaned the dispenser. Then my mom told her to used the slippery to avoid the electrical shock. she said like this "ning, pake sendal jepit aja biar ga kesetrum.."

*few minutes later..

i was speechless.shocked.i looked on my dad's face to see the reaction...
u want to know what happened??
ready?..
okay, she cleaned the dispenser by the slippery!!!!!!she used it like using a towel or a rag to clean it..not wearing it!!!

FYI she was a little sick, sooo...maybe..this condition affected her in doing some stuff,,hehe..
but i just can't stop wondering..making a little devil grin on my face....so silly..haha

silly answer

2009-08-10T02:07:00.000-07:00

few days ago i watched a news about a fire accident in a factory with my mom (i forgot what factory it was). The reporter interviewed an old man who was near on the area. it has nothing funny until,...
Reporter: "emm,sir...when did the accident happen..??"
old man: grinning.."ohh, i'm sorry i didn't see my watch" atau kalo di bahasa indonesianya=
"wah, saya ga liat jam waktu itu"

the old man answered it innocently..

my mom and i bursted in laugh... XD